happy birthday lala!

the weather lately is killing me.
the packing is making me antsy.

i feel like i am not doing enough about the preparation. haha

7 more days!

countdown to 7th May

the general elections this year are really exciting. there's a flood of news on facebook, the newspaper, online. 82 of 87 seats are contested, such a strong show of the opposition! first time voting, so i'm actually quite interested to attend at least one rally. well, hope i get the chance to!

time to start packing. like really really really pack. hahaha and i finally got my licence, though ql n i think it doesnt look like me. weird.

i have to figure out skype account set-up!

it is possible

to hate a name, simply because of one person.
to jump at the sight of a certain make of car in a certain color, because of memories.
to still wanna punch a person in the face, no matter how much time has passed.

i don't hope you're happy. please be miserable as hell. FOREVER.

you wished the end could have been on better terms. but you should know, it doesnt matter. what matters is that it was THE END.

hanging out

i like hanging out with friends, its just fun.
mahjong with linteng, tingyan, yinjie, with zhiyong video-conferencing via msn live messenger. that was super hilarious.
dating linteng and hanjing for one afternoon each - we could talk so much, lame so much, and share bits about our lives that we normally don't get to share. i like that closeness, cause we all know its just concern as longtime friends, and we've evolved so much from those little kids who shy away from having friends of the opposite sex.

hj and i agree on one point that cause we're so weary people with prior experience, it's so bloody sian to go through the whole cycle of relationships. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY but then again, to meet someone who eeyer at holding hands, omg at kissing, also damn sian. LOL

burden-less, warm, happy. =) nothing complicated, my life now, just the way it should be.

termination & replacement

i think sg banks buay pai. hahaha now i must go find my phone banking pin for all 3 banks. omg.

IC $60 instead of $100(small gratitude) one month's time: someone need to collect for me
driver licence $25 collection on 28th
credit cards: UOB, DBS, OCBC already in the mail
atm cards: POSB, UOB settled with different PINs
sim card to be couriered. meanwhile i got a spare no.
passwords: facebook, gmail, hotmail all changed
handphone how?? to get or not to get?
house lock. damn it, must change

i am cursing the guy every single moment in my subconscious mind. "bad NO sex for 7 years!" may lady lose follow u all the way!

happy times!

85 dinner for friday night, sorta a mini hush-hush celebration for lt's 25th.

朋友就是这样好，短聚2个小时也很窝心。

the girls!! (before 3 got drunk) lol seriously funny la, never imagined there would be so many casualties.

our full strength at the Butter Factory, first time clubbing with the girls and the guys. it was a fun and high night, maybe cause we were so comfortable with each other. but there were OMG moments! LOL

当了兵，不代表已经从男孩蜕变成男人。
男人必须是有责任感的，无论任何时刻都会do the right thing.
稳重，照顾身边的人。累，醉，都还能让人依赖。
温暖，知道对方需要的是什么。
大方， 明白小器忸怩只是20岁时做的事。
对事情有见解，也临危不乱，够淡定。

女孩子也不一定会变成女人。
温柔，懂的体恤别人，展现关怀。
独立，必要时靠自己的力量完成事情。
明白事理，因为无理取闹也很幼稚。
聪明，为自己作出正确的决定。

都只是我的意见，觉得我们一路看到彼此的变化， 挺开心的。这样的朋友，我很珍惜。

butter factory

it was fun the first 2 hours, drinking and dancing...
then the ones we thought wouldn't get drunk got drunk.
and then some bloody fucker stole my bag. with all my things inside.

i curse u to the lowest level of hell, and i hope u get caught so that i can skewer u and eat your balls to appease my anger.

bloody fuck fuck fuck. knnwtf. seriously pissed at the carelessness. one phrase will show how pissed i am. ccb, rot and die u fucker.

went to sleep with an uncomfortable feeling in my heart. second time proves the anticipation is really worth more than the actual event. the silence was not awkward, and when i look into his eyes and face, i understand why i once loved him so. but it was not a heart racing feeling, there was no desire that overtook me and made me want to grab his hand and hug him.

and i wonder if i will ever find back that kind of feeling. 那心跳加速，想要轰轰烈烈爱一次的冲动。

hmmm...

男欢女爱这些事，真是有时候让人啼笑皆非。默契与感觉，那么多人想得到，但却又偏偏不能强求。

不要被卷入其中比较好，旁观者清。

busy week

mon + thurs: power plate lesson - hope we don't die.
tues: pator day with lala! we're gonna get a GPS, plus it's Ben & Jerry free cone day!
wed: dinner with gen
fri: 85
sat: butter factory!
sun,mon,tues: chalet (show face only, it's mum's)

looking forward to 7th May!

you gotta be kidding me right? the sheer atrocity. thought your career path was to just follow her wherever she goes?

saturday!

played mahjong with pork leen lala. hahaha, rushed affair, with only winnings of $6. but it was fun Bom-ing.

horrible downpour, so cabbed down to granny's place for the extended family mad champagne popping session. reason: mum and dad have finally quitted their jobs!

seriously funny la. LOL and they wanna go out in full force to send me off on 7th May. they are so lame can!

nevermind, my celebration shall take place on 16 april, butter factory. wahahaha so damn looking forward to the first clubbing with the girls.

insomnia lehz...

there are some things i wish i could forgive and forget. but my memory wouldn't let me. even either or of those two would be fine. but no such luck. dang.

looking forward to a hectic mad packed month ahead. need to do more ktv, mj and dinners before we 3 fly. haha

7th may 7.45pm.

peeved

so it has come to this, huh?

aiya it's up to me right? ok lor, i expect with this answer, you've already decided not to contact me anymore. i could live with that.

better to have no more contact than to suddenly have such childish games sprung on me again. seriously, is there any rule as to how often contact must be made? you're making it sound like it's my fault. not as if you dunno we're just friends, and we agreed to keep the situation open, no strings attached. was i supposed to report? i dun remember it being in the terms n conditions!

anyway, i happen to think my answer was logical, maybe a bit too unfeeling i admit, but no need for a brouhaha.

damn it. fine, i can read a hint. i can cut contact with you.

清明节

第一次扫墓，竟然还有宾士作为祭品。

阿麽说：老了，以后我死了，没有土葬， 只有放在庙里一个灵位。应该就没有人会在清明节这样拜我。听了很难过。

面对战争，小心眼的婆婆，爱喝酒的丈夫，独自带大九个子女，经历过家庭反目，过了九旬辛苦人生的阿麽仍然坚强。唯一希望是她健康平安，不再难过生气无助。

担心回来时，她已不在， 所以叫她好好照顾自己， 要等我。她说，这种事没得掌控。害我眼泪在眼眶打转。

slacking mode

dinner with colleagues on thurs night at yishun. lotsa food in a rather short dinner. i am gonna miss the people, now that there are no politics and guessing involved.

fri xlb buffet at 5pm. early bird winner goes to 那个姓赖的. with work ending officially at 6pm, he was there reading newspaper at 430pm. hahaha total turnout 9 people. total xlb > 30z5. hahaha last order: 十二笼小龙包. the waitress incredulously asked us, are you sure you can finish, else we have to charge for wastage. YES!!! and we did. hahaha =D refugee ride again in the back of the van to hj's hse, where we divided up to play mj, sing ktv, and play wii. hahaha his house is really a one-stop shop.

other random things i did: driving my dad's huge orange van at a slow slow pace. from punggol to bedok,to visit ahma. and then borrowing some books from the library (yj: i am also cultured! lol) dinner with my parents with a fat tabby cat snoozing all the while under the table

the afternoon is too hot for me to do anything, even though i have to transfer some funds, do some computer stuff clearing up, and then pack my room and table. haha